My love is definitely conditional. I ain’t no saint, and I cannot give my love without being treated with respect and, LOVE.
I just feel very disheartened whenever “friends” suddenly turn their backs at me and take me for granted. And I’m quite sure I’m not being sensitive. I just… GET IT… when you give me all the signs that you want to distant yourselves from me, for whatever reasons not known to me, I will stay away. Even though it means spending all my time all alone, I don’t mind. I just want my friendship, and love, to be appreciated and reciprocated.
Maybe it’s my problem. I’m not a good company. I suck at communicating. I’m a BITCH. But over the months I have been given the signs that I was slowly gaining acceptance into this cliquish group. I have no ulterior motives, I just wanted to be friends, and I really thought we could click… but apparently not.
And you know what, I am fine with that. I can be strong and move on. I GET IT.
And every time after such “betrayals” happened, I always regret giving my all unconditionally… as if I’m not old and seasoned enough to know that the world is ruled by impermanence? Still so gullible at such old age. And feel so disappointed every time it happens.
And this is NOT my PMS talking ;p
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